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Name: Julia
Location: Annapolis, Maryland, United States
Birthday: 3/7/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: Swimming, listening to people and music, observing the surroundings in which I live, seeing others smile
Occupation: Government
Industry: Education/Research
Message: message meEmail: email me
Member Since:
3/10/2005
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| AHHHHHH
I feel so worthless right now! What am I doing with my life?!?!
What is there to do with my life?!?!
All I want to do is move on, but I feel like I'm stuck...
I applied to take classes on this online university thing, and then I told my parents about it and they really flipped out... So I am in the process of canceling that. It took all of 30 minutes to decide to do it and get accepted, however, now I have to back out because I didn't think it through completely...
Are my decision making skills completely out the window now!?!?!
What should I do with my time?!?!
UGH!
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| I feel kind of lost in the world. I find myself in a place where I dont know how I got here. I feel like I'm in limbo land where I dont really know what my future holds. The only thing that I know for certain is that I love Andrew and we will be married sometime in the near future.
I finally got to asking Cat if she would be in my wedding party :) I've wanted to do that for some time now but with everything else that's been going on I either didn't have access to the internet or didn't have time. Although you would think I would have been a little speedier with that one.. lol...
I was reading through old entires and I'm trying to figure out who I am. I feel like I have no good grasp on who I am...
ugh... I need to go write something for Jenny... I love her so much too! She is such a good friend! I need to get this done tonight...
peace!
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| It has been far too long since I've written here. The last time I wrote on here I was going through some major heart break. Now I'm in a place where my life is fitting into place and everything seems to be going towards where I want it to go. I am engaged to a wonderful man, his name is Andrew Johnson. I am about to graduate in 161 days, get married in 160... and move away from this silly place known as Annapolis, MD. I have this harted for this place. It's not so much that Annapolis is a bad place to be, but the Academy... man that sucks the life out of you! I've learned that these past 3 and a half years here at the Academy have changed me so much. I dont hate the person I've become, but I dont like some of the additude traits I've picked up. I find myself fixing that on a daily basis because of Andrew. He brings me back to a place where I find peace... in general he is my joy! Time for a final... | | |
| It's almost the end of a semester... it's seemed to fly by, and I've learned a lot... but I feel like I'm missed out on so much. There's one thing that is constantly on my heart and on my mind...
Unsung Psalm
There would be psalms sung by a choir
I would have a white robe a halo newly acquired
Id be at peace and Id have no desire
If Id lived right
There would be cherubs with tiny harps arrows and bows
Id have a halo and a flowing white robe
Id be enfolded by a celestial light
If Id lived right
But Im feeling hot and bothered under the collar
I feel the sweat breaking out on my brow
I feel the heat and I know its the passion
The love I cant disavow
If this is a dream wake me up now
If this is a movie lets edit these scenes out
It would be a pg instead of an x rated life
If Id lived right
Some would call me a cheat call me a liar
Say that Ive been defeated by the basest desired
Yes I have strayed and succumbed to my vices
But I tried to live right
But I have no regrets no guilt in my heart
I only feel sadness for any pain that Ive caused
I guess I wouldnt bother to worry at all
If Id lived right
Do you live by the book do you play by the rules
Do you care what is thought by others about you
If this day is all that is promised to you
Do you life for the future the present the past
If there is one thing I know I know I will die
If anyone cares some stranger my critique my life
I may be revered or defamed and decried
But I tried to live right
There would be psalms sung by a choir
I would have a white robe a halo newly acquired
Id be at peace and Id have no desire
If Id lived right | | |
| I wish I didnt still love Ryan... I wish I wasnt so parnoid... I wish I could just be numb... | | |
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